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|Monday, January 7th, 2008|
|Snake In The Grass
Current Mood: aggravated
I was lying in the grass one day, oblivious to the changing time of day around me.
With the sudden rustle of grass nearby, I rolled on my side to see a creature a few meters away,
stretched out and staring at me with its eyes full of apparent need.
Despite the surprise of this unexpected visitor’s appearance, I did not feel afraid.
It had come to me so quietly, and had not disturbed my thoughts, until it must have finally felt the need to get my attention.
As I sat up to focus on this animal, and what it might want, I was washed over with pity.
The poor thing was without limbs and was writhing as if in pain just to move a few inches, imprisoned by its own incapability.
Something in the back of my mind tried to remember some tale once heard about such a creature, but as it drew pathetically closer to me, I succumbed to intrigue and felt the need to provide it with companionship.
The moment it reached me, I could tell that we both had a sense of tension and caution about each other.
There had to be some way for me to show it I was peaceful.
I followed my instinct and gently lifted its ribbon-like body off the ground, draping it over my arms.
It seemed to truly appreciate its sudden release from the confinement of the ground.
As I began my journey with it, I tried to show it all that it could never have seen or known from its natural viewpoint, but though it observed from time to time, it seemed too distracted by its own desires.
Somehow I knew that its hunger was to blame for its complacency, so together we scavenged, and I fed it all that I could find, but it never seemed to be satisfied.
As it continued to consume my offerings, always seeming to need and expect more, it began to get too heavy for my poor arms to carry it.
As my arms sagged, it seemed to sense it was getting closer to the ground and in desperation, it began to move circles around me, wrapping its self until it felt secure. Though it scared me to have something surrounding me so tightly, I tried to convince myself that it was what it needed to do to feel safe, so I carried on, straining against its weight.
Still it hungered, still it desired more.
Then it finally seemed that there was nothing left for the poor creature to consume, and the burden of its mass was becoming too much for me.
I knew that I could not carry on for the both of us much longer.
As I fell to my knees, it constricted around my whole body, making me suffer for my failings, ignoring my efforts, and making my determination weaken more.
Shaking, I looked once more into its eyes, and at once we both understood each other.
Its appetite had still not yet been stifled, and I had but one thing left to give.
I held in my scream as suddenly threatening jaws unhinged and it sank its fangs into the flesh of my perspiring neck.
As my face met the Earth, I remembered the cautionary story of Eve, and how the cunning serpent had convinced her to condemn herself.
I truly feel pity for her, as I lie here feeling the shock of my nerves convulsing and deteriorating within me.
I can see how she might have fallen into the trap of the serpent’s cunning, just as in my fading mind I think, “had this one ever intended to be a companion to me, for what I had provided it? Or would there never have been enough for me to give it, making this end inevitable?”
It no longer matters now, as the ground is now my prison as it abandons me.
I gasp as the snake gracefully seems to flow through the grass, leaving me behind.
It had never been as incapable and needy as it had let on.
And now I close my eyes and weep.
If I somehow survive, I will never forget the time when I was charmed by a snake.
|Monday, March 19th, 2007|
|Road Trip and Update
So.... I spent my March Break driving to Southern Ontario to check out the prospective universities I've applied for. I liked Queens and didn't much like Carleton, but I think Wilfred Laurier is the place for me. I really like that I've applied for a double degree there. I would be taking Business administration at Wilfred Laurier and Math at Waterloo, so it's not a bad deal, but I have to do really good in my geometry class, and Mr. Luk seems opposed to letting that happen. Ah well, we'll just have to wait and see.
There's a new NEW boss at the golf course now. Hopefully this one doesn't push drugs or tend to be a pathological liar or something like that (ask me later) *fingers crossed*. The chairman says I'll be getting the call soon so we'll see. Yippee for income!! For now I just tutor. Horay tutoring.
On a sad note, my 16 year old cat (yes I've had her since I was three) passed away today. Her kidneys failed, likely from her food. Apparently the brand was recalled but not fast enough. So anyways, I will miss her. Poor Sunshine.
Night night all. Current Mood: frustrated
|Thursday, March 1st, 2007|
Just curious...anyone read me anymore?? Current Mood: bored
|Friday, February 2nd, 2007|
I turned nineteen two days ago!! Woohoo. The Saturday before that I saw the Rocky Horror Show live!! Double Woohoo. Anyways, i'm off to bed.
|Monday, January 29th, 2007|
|Tuesday, December 19th, 2006|
|Sunday, July 2nd, 2006|
Ummm, friends only yo... leave a comment and perhaps I can add you in and you can read some slightly less than boring things about me, rather than blah quizes and sloppy stories. Smile. * v *
|Monday, October 17th, 2005|
If you reply to this,
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.
|Sunday, August 7th, 2005|
Marty wanna come with me and Sammy to wedding crashers @ 9? Fun times? You know who we need? Willow, is she off work?
|Tuesday, July 26th, 2005|
Happy Birthday Catherine, enjoy your Dryden-ing. Call me when you're back in town. You owe my a swim fest.
|Thursday, June 16th, 2005|
|Wednesday, June 15th, 2005|
So yes, I've rejoined the land of the sickos. I feel like my whole abdomin was disintegrating. So I went to the doc's office and they rushed me to the emerg. I have a sneaky little hernia, AND they also predict either an ulser or gall stones. Either one sucks. Got two needles, she stuck the first one in wrong, tapped away while it was wedged in my arm, and when blood still wouldn't come it she removed it and just tried again. Gee-zus that hurt!! SO this is just super great. It's the night before my only two exams and i'm doped up with my tummy now feeling like it weighs a tonne. Studying is a no go for an hour or so, until my head clears up. The rest i don't have time to study for, I'll just have to wing it...poo.
|Friday, June 10th, 2005|
|Sunday, June 5th, 2005|
|Monday, May 30th, 2005|
So freaking out about my essay. Mr. Jutila is giving me extra time which is sweet. If I can find a way out of the house i might actually be able to get it done. Current Mood: nervous
|Thursday, March 17th, 2005|
in france and loving it. later.
|Saturday, February 26th, 2005|
|Saturday, December 18th, 2004|